If i was truly happy all the time , i will never appreciate life. Life that was given by god. Not only by water , but by blood. Sometimes we need to miss things in order to realize how valuable it is or want things to realise how important it is . If i was happy all the time , where would god be then?

Troubles will never stop flowing in & it'll get out , just because it leaves a mark in your heart , just because youve grown from it , & we learn from... all these . I got to a point feeling so comfortable around you and wishing that this stage will never exist but somehow.. it did. But i'll leave that behind us.


God's never ending love shines down to us , everyday , without fail. His love gets more as each day passes day , thank you god.

Love , what is?

what is love?


-Love is when.. you share your favourite or most expensive clothes with ur

-If you want to learn to love more, start with the friend u hate most.

-Love is when you treat someone with care & respect when they least have it.

-To wash the dishes left and give no credit to yourself.

-Love is like... waking up early making breakfast just because u dont want them to feel hungry till lunch.

Change

What i think > what i feel > how i act.

Becareful of what you think ; your life is shaped by your thoughts. You're not what u think u are , but what you think , you are. If you want to change , change your thoughts , change only comes with a new thinking.


What you feel.. determines how u act. The last stage is acting , and if u want to change the way u act , change the way u think! Sometimes u act depressed , why? Because you feel depressed and why? Because u think of negative & unhealthy thoughts. Same goes to anger and all the other kiinds of destructive thoughts.

Came back from RBS a couple of days ago. I would say it didnt change my life , but it changed my perspective towards things. Of course , as days pass , i learn to die to self. Which means dying to my old habits & planting it with new fruits. Another things , no doubt i strive to be better everyday , to be less tempermental & more patient with people.

So many friends that are incredible there & the thing is that people are trying so hard to change and be someone better. I never knew how much of burden & sorrow i have inside of me myself till , i put everything else away from me & let god deal with it. & to see how God has mould me in this 5 weeks camp to be someone that i've always strive to be.. is just amazing. Waking up at 7.30 in the morning everyday isnt really my kind of thing but as i return home , i actually like waking up early. Keeping up with my devotions isnt really the easiet thing to do , feeling lazy sometimes , but as soon i start thinking of certain things & discipline ive learned , i will do it. Journaling in rbs is prob the best thing , somewhere i can totally be real & honest with , i can write up to 6-8 pages a day , true story.

Getting involve in OA and missions was never my thing , i never like being out of my comfort zone but going for OA and missions opened up my eyes to so many things , i think this is exactly where i want to serve god at. The first week being up there was completely SLOW yet depressing , for the fact i DID cry everyday for the first week there. No , i DID not cry because i miss home infact i dont at all. Tears of broken heart & shattered hopes was poured out , it was indeed depressing & miserable. Bought a book for book report by Max lucado Name " A love worth giving" , I have to completely agree with the feedbacks that its a book everyone should read it , especially those who are facing difficulties. It help me to recover and to move on with a positive mindset & most of all , to love others inspite of their wrong doings & hatred against you.

The rest of the days there passed by too quickly & without noticing , gaining alot of weight there as well. I was sent to Ipoh , somewhere ive ALWAYS wanted to visit & the church there was so welcoming , left with a heavy heart :( :(. Travelled back to Pj and stayed in PJGH , with sleeping bags. And during graduation night , everything just ended so fast :(. Many left with joy , but some didnt want to leave. Everything comes to an end , and now.. the journey begins for all of us. The question is , can we live up to the commitments we made or we cant?

So far , yes. But wait till the fire stops burning , will we remember this experience / knowledge we've gained / commitments after few months down the road , or even one month?