Came back from RBS a couple of days ago. I would say it didnt change my life , but it changed my perspective towards things. Of course , as days pass , i learn to die to self. Which means dying to my old habits & planting it with new fruits. Another things , no doubt i strive to be better everyday , to be less tempermental & more patient with people.

So many friends that are incredible there & the thing is that people are trying so hard to change and be someone better. I never knew how much of burden & sorrow i have inside of me myself till , i put everything else away from me & let god deal with it. & to see how God has mould me in this 5 weeks camp to be someone that i've always strive to be.. is just amazing. Waking up at 7.30 in the morning everyday isnt really my kind of thing but as i return home , i actually like waking up early. Keeping up with my devotions isnt really the easiet thing to do , feeling lazy sometimes , but as soon i start thinking of certain things & discipline ive learned , i will do it. Journaling in rbs is prob the best thing , somewhere i can totally be real & honest with , i can write up to 6-8 pages a day , true story.

Getting involve in OA and missions was never my thing , i never like being out of my comfort zone but going for OA and missions opened up my eyes to so many things , i think this is exactly where i want to serve god at. The first week being up there was completely SLOW yet depressing , for the fact i DID cry everyday for the first week there. No , i DID not cry because i miss home infact i dont at all. Tears of broken heart & shattered hopes was poured out , it was indeed depressing & miserable. Bought a book for book report by Max lucado Name " A love worth giving" , I have to completely agree with the feedbacks that its a book everyone should read it , especially those who are facing difficulties. It help me to recover and to move on with a positive mindset & most of all , to love others inspite of their wrong doings & hatred against you.

The rest of the days there passed by too quickly & without noticing , gaining alot of weight there as well. I was sent to Ipoh , somewhere ive ALWAYS wanted to visit & the church there was so welcoming , left with a heavy heart :( :(. Travelled back to Pj and stayed in PJGH , with sleeping bags. And during graduation night , everything just ended so fast :(. Many left with joy , but some didnt want to leave. Everything comes to an end , and now.. the journey begins for all of us. The question is , can we live up to the commitments we made or we cant?

So far , yes. But wait till the fire stops burning , will we remember this experience / knowledge we've gained / commitments after few months down the road , or even one month?